This was one of those times where I strove to take as many selfies as possible.
Was it because I felt vain?
No.
Was it because I was vain?
Also no.
But it was one of those times where you take the selfie when you're feeling it, or when you've worn the armor to make yourself feel it.
It's just as well that I'm seeing these pictures now, because, well, I haven't been feeling it for a while. I shan't go into details but let's just say it isn't every day that I feel like I've got everything anchored, moving in direction, confident, and knowing just well I'm going to go.
Truth be told, I haven't felt it for a long time.
But one must keep moving forward.
Because there is no future, there is nothing, if one does not (at least) attempt to go forward. No one extends a hand to someone who is not attempting their best to go ahead and move forward. No one bothers with someone who has not (at least) made a baby attempt to keep moving on.
Which is where these pictures come in.
One does not know the future.
One does not know whether or not one will be able to move forward, stagnate, or (I hope not) be held back.
But to the very least- even as depressing as it sounds- I know I did not miss a moment, nor did I deliberately let the moment pass me by.
These pictures had been taken on different occasions over the course of a single month.
The first one, if I'm not wrong, had been taken whilst waiting at the seats outside Orchard Central's DDD for my friend who had crossed over to Centerpoint for a tub of Greek style yogurt.
Second one, very likely, was at some restaurant, maybe in Capitol Theater where we were having a dinner of mala dumplings.
The next two I know I took at Capitol Theater, at the Punggol Nasi Lemak place whilst waiting for a friend who had gone to one of the salons for a haircut.
These two pictures I particularly remember- I had gotten tired of looking mature- and dug out the glittery eyeshadow palette NAREE that i had bought from Thailand maybe two years ago from Eve & Boy and still hadn't yet finished. Glittery peach eyeshadow matures me. Glittery white eyeshadow makes me look younger (I think).
And I had decided that day I wasn't going to be mature.
i seemed to have overdone it though.
Then, of course, there's the selfie of me on the bus. Can't remember what bus it was, can't remember where I was going, but the hair was fine, the light was good, and I took the picture.
There're a lot more selfies after this one.
All from the weekend just before Chinese New Year.
To be honest I had not expected I would take so many.
But I was feeling (somewhat) pretty on Valentine's Day Saturday- with sea winds tossing my hair- whilst at an event in a rooftop bar 20 floors up an office building down at Shenton Way.
And I felt prettier when on the eve of Chinese New Year we were at Suntec City for a K-BBQ meal and the natural light up at the Liho near Golden Village was so good.
Best of all, the hair was great that day.
As it was for the day after when we headed to Bugis for a lunch at the recently discovered Bugis outlet of Mainland Chinese place Oriental Food.
Seeing these pictures now, it dawns on me that it is indeed true that accessories and layering can define a look.
Whether it be a hoodie jacket that you put on (because it's raining), whether it be hoop earrings you decide to wear because it is Chinese New Year Eve and you don't want to be wearing the same flower stud earrings that you put on your ear day on day, or whether it be your eye makeup that for some reason you decide to bounce back to peach glitter instead of the white glitter that you know jolly well makes you look brighter.
Somehow, I wish I always looked this way.
But that's life.
You don't always look your best.
You don't always have the space and the opportunity to always look as pulled together as you should to.
But we try.
We try very hard.
Even if it be a layer of BB cream, a small square of bronze shaded shimmer makeup, a comb, and a stick of color-changing lip balm.